Guilty As Charged

ok. it's 2am and i already feel like dying. But nevertheless, i'll bring you this post and let's get it done asap. Im honestly tired out.

I woke up at like 530am in the morning earlier today for my NS medical checkup today, closing my eyes for a full 2 hrs cos of the soccer match in the morning. I haf no idea whr the hell CMPB is, thus have to get my dad to fetch me thr which requires me to be outta the hse at 630am. I swore i was yawning the entire 4 hours there, even when im next to get my blood drawn. The drawing blood was kinda retarded thanks to the super bo chup medic. I was actually falling aslp and stoning while getting my blood drawn, down to the point whr the medic had to ask whether im alright or not, fearing that i fainted or sth. Nope, im a wuss. i didn't see the process of drawing blood. So i dunno wad it looks like. Another thing was the IQ Test that i haf to take. i keep exceeding the time limit which resulting in me skipping alot of qns, but i do recall expressing interest for water. Maybe i'll get navy! LOL. i hope not, but i bloody wun wanna jump outta a plane! But i swore it's rly difficult to concentrate when all ur mind could tink of is ur bed. Explicit Content aside, i discovered Botak Jones was opp CMPB, i was rly tempted to try, but no company. So i had a crap chicken rice and took a bus down to MI for training for nxt wk's show.

Training kinda ended late, but i was paid to sit thr. so wad the heck, encore! And honestly being around Macbook for so long, it kinda tempted me to get one myself. I gt gd deals! if ure interested to get APPLE pdts, contact me! im like ur MAN homey!

Either ways, im here to confess my sin for gluttony. i cant believe wad i ate the entire day today and it's rly disgusting. ok here goes.

1.chicken rice(late lunch)
2. Nasi Padang (dinner)
3. 2 doughnuts from J.co(nice chillout)

Oh ya, if u guys are hanging around town wif a tight budget yet u wanna go for lotsa food. i recommend you guys to head to CARREFOUR!!!!!!!!! it's a gd shopping experience. omg. i tink ly n v's is rubbing off me. damn! here's some photos of the rest of the stuff i ate.

4. Pizza. 4 slices for 4.50! i had 2 slices!

5. Honey Glazed Chicken Leg - $2.90

We were walking around Carrefour holding a chicken leg on our hand. It tastes like crap cos we're friggin full, it's cold and it tastes like hard bwa kua. Nevertheless we finished it asap, cos the last one had to buy another one to eat. LOL.

6. Bubble Tea - To down all the food. I ended up on the verge of puking on my way home.

7. Apple Strudel - Honestly, i dunno why i ate tt, maybe cos i was falling aslp while trying to watch naruto.

oh ya. forgot to mention. Im PESC BP (BUI PIA!)

ok gtg slp kkthxbye

Alrighty. I went all my way out to make sure the tagbox is at the top right now.

NO MORE EXCUSES AND HOLLA UP!

n sry to the new homies list. if ure names are missing. holla at me and i'll add u in. Dun be a bitch. just do it.

Curse or Blessing?

now. be a nobody, so no one gets disappointed ever again.

I was never cut out to be just a nobody.

if u continue to think. you will never make it out.

wth. this is the first time in my entire life my paper com dc. crap shit. i swear i slammed the desktop. it was lagging like madness. wif all the stupid msn conversation. yes. if u msn me when im in busy status. ure basically retarded. tat's abt it. man. it just feels like this:

If this pic doesn't work. im a retard too.

okok. im an addict.

Get out soon

Struggle

Come on. pull urself together!
Get yourself outta this mess rite now.
The people doesn't need you no more.
For they find no need in you.
You got to pull urself back up!

Find a need and meet a need.
Leave your pride for it's not worth.
Let go of the past embrace the present.
Lean on wat's supporting you.
n grab hold of wat u still haf.
Come on. Come on. Come on.

Day Out

Ok. this post is for those tt is very irritated tt i became a hermit. Today's my day out. Went to Haji lane today to find my beloved Urica. She's sick and tat's abt it. oh yar. i went outta hse thinking tt my tee had a defect and i realised it's the design. retarded.

Derrick's spend 2.80 worth of plaster on tt leg. The Culprit.

I bought this and a raglan. Yep. the end. byebye

Kanye West - Can't Tell Me Nothing

I had a dream I can buy my way to heaven
When I awoke, I spent that on a necklace.
I told God I'd be back in a second,
Man It's so hard not to act reckless.
To whom much is given much is tested.
Get arrested, got some chili, get the message.
I feel the pressure, under more scrutiny,
And What I do? Act more stupidly.
Bought More Jewelry, More Louis V,
My momma couldn't get through to me.
The drama, people suing me,
I'm on T.V. talking like it's just you and me.
I'm just saying how I feel man,
I ain't one of the Cosby’s I ain’t go to Hill man
I guess the money should've changed him,
I guess I should've forgot where I came From.

La,la,la,la wait till I get my money right
la, la, la, la then you cant tell me nothing right
Excuse Me, is you saying something?
Uh, uh, you can't tell me nothing(Haha)
you cant tell me nothing
Uh, uh, you cant tell me nothing
Let up the suicide doors.
This is my life homey, you decide yours.
I know Jesus died for us,
But I couldn't tell you who decide wars.
So I parallel double parked that motherf***er sideways
Old folks talking bout back in my day
But homey this is my day.
Class started 2 hours ago, oh am I late?
You know I already graduated
And you can live through anything if Magic made it.
They say I talk with so much emphasis,
OOOO They so Sen-Sa-Tive.
Don't ever fix your lips like collagen
Say something were you gone end up apologing.
Let me know if it's a problem man,
Alright man, holla then.

La,la,la,la wait till I get my money right
la, la, la, la then you cant tell me nothing right
Excuse Me, is you saying something?
Uh, uh, you can't tell me nothing(Haha)
you cant tell me nothing
Uh, uh, you cant tell me nothing

Let the champagne splash,
let that man get cash,
Let that man get past.
You don't needa stop to get gas,
If he can move through the rumors,
he can drive off the fumes cuzz
How he move in a room full of nose?
How he stay faithful in a room full of h**s?
Must be the pharaohs,
he in tune with his soul,
So when he buried in a tomb full of gold.
Treasure. What's you pleasure?
Life is a, uh, depending how you dress her.
So if the devil wear Prada,
Adam Eve wear Nada,
I'm in between, but way more fresher.
But way less effort,
cause when you try hard,
That's when you die hard.
Ya homies looking like "Why God?"
When they reminisce over you, my god.

-Man. im so feeling this. come on jed.-

im sorry

let's not seek forgiveness at all the wrong places.

It's definitely a mysterious thing, that no one can truly grasp hold of. Some deem it sexual between man and woman, while others deem it agape between God and themselves, most prominant that most of us had encounter should most probably be parental, between the parent and the child.

Yet many at times, this thing we called love is not comprehensive at all. You can't be taught how to love in school, your parents can't teach you either. Often, we view from others and follow straight, thinking, that particular one thing that creates a fuzzy feeling will fill up the hearts of the lone soul. However, do you call this love? like? lust? or juz an attraction?

Scientists deem attraction between Man n Woman when both genders exudes a certain smell in the air, that can't be detected by the nose but the hormones, when both genders likes the smell, they become attracted to one another. This is also known by me as 'aura' or 'phweeleng'(feeling).

Personally, i dunno why im speaking of such stuff tt i myself cannot comprehend, phweeleng? yes, i have tons. Yet im not one that's capable of love, cos i have not experienced it yet. Sexual does not equal love. That's what i know of. Maybe that's y im not attached yet, yet again, bcos im not appealing(i tink tis matters more) or juz plain lazy(life of a hermit). Time and time again, i haf ppl prod me abt tis fine lady or tt wild thing, ask me wat's my expectation, how come i dun wanna get attached wif her or watsoeva. My answer is always the same, no feeling. N nope, im not gay. LOL.

Love makes pple do stupid things. I believe my life working wif ppl, i see tons of it. Life wrecked after rejection, quarrels, two time crap shit, desperados. Honestly, to handle this everyday does give u doubt on wat you used to know as love. Maybe cos those happily in love never bothers you, but the troubled ones are usually the one circling ur life. Not that i mind anyway. It's the time that keeps our relationship going. Currently im viewing one rite before my eyes, how sum1 can cry and write desperate things just to get the attention of the opposite gender. In my opinion, it's just parts and parcels of being young. I used to do it too, to the thing i thought was love. But people do grow up and mature, and slowly u began to comprehend that love is not all about just holding hands at the beach, hugging under the stars, kissing under the mistletoe. It slowly generates to other issues, taking care of each other life, sharing the burden and joy. If you dun handle it well, i tink the time in a rls usually ends up like this.

30% love
50% quarrel
20% crying/cold war/sulking/(insert here)

lol. tt's my view i guess.

I once had people asking me. Is friends rly tt impt to you? I just smiled, knowing very well, if you're not important, i wun bother talking to you in the first place. I realised friends whether gd or bad, are usually the one that sticks by u. When you're in a rls, ur frens become secondary, but when ure having troubles wif the 50% on the above, you come to seek ur frens. So no matter wat, frens become like an alternative, but nevertheless impt.

I feel im flying all arnd, but just bear wif me.

I think the most impt love shld be family. They are the one tt dun break up/divorce/split. Angry? yes all the time, but never to the extend of forsaking the rls. No matter how bad i am wif my dad, it's still a love/hate rls, but until nw i haven quite experienced the love factor from him. My parents are very very naggy, work! study! get ur license! rmb to go for medical! slp! eat! hahaha. Yet it's still concerned. My lil sis as well, J1 tis yr, seeing her took the steps i took(not academic, she's damn pro) her indecisiveness, the muddlehead just remind me of me. I still do try to talk to her at times, but now im the hermit and she's the chiongsua part. Vice versa alr. lol u see, people do changed.

Anyway, juz a lil rant. If u ppl like to come in and spend 5 sec of ur life reading my blog. It's very much appreciated. But if it's becos of the music tt makes u wanna leave. Go ahead, tat's ur issue wif music. not me.

im supposed to blog abt love. but den i gt friggin pissed. so. ya.

No love for you people today.

How to be a NERD

ok. i admit. im a nerd too. cos my email used to be this.

darkace_fameasser00@yahoo.com.sg

Insa "Buy My Love" Exhibition at Recoat Gallery

Insa recently opened his "Buy My Love" exhibition at Glasgow's Recoat. Doing it like no other, Insa incorporated his trademark palette into a series of PVC and mural works. Much of his work referenced a fresh bout of sexaulity he has now made his norm.

Source: mashKULTURE, Insa, Hypebeast

Yes. i kop from there. The murals just overwhelms me. I like purple now.. BUT not to the extend of wearing it yet =D

The reason why jc cried tat night, and why venis owned wif drow ranger.

OH YA. better go shave now. or else im gg to look like crap tml.

damn. im wasting my life away wif dota. not tt i want to do anything else.

ok. To-Do-List

1. turn up for briefing tml at MI for IT show
2. go for medical check up on 29th(Confirm PESC BUI KIA)
3. 6-9 march work for IT show
4. get my friggin pdl updated n chiong driving
5. get licence b4 i friggin enter army n cry.
6. plan for outing at timbre/zouk/phuture/mos

Ah crap. why cant u ppl plan. WAD WILL U ALL DO WIFOUT ME.

i have seen how people changed.

How those that picked up all the habits.

How they started smoking

How some that dun like drinking start burning up their liver

How some have changed their mindset of the world

Very often, there's a cause and effect.


"If you thought you didn't matter in my life, i would not have reduced to this."

Pen yourself

I'M A FAN

daft punk and Kanye are awesome. I like the whole LED effect. haha. I'M NOW A FAN! You guys might wanna listen the last part wif Kanye's "hey mama" It's a tribute to his mum, Mrs West who went home to be with the Lord, on how a young son dreams to give his mama the best for all she has done for him.

"Last night I saw you in my dreams, Now i cant wait to go to sleep."

You know, Valentine aint so much abt spending time wif ur gal/guy. You all can spend some time wif your loved ones, like ur mama too. yep. Spend your time wisely today.

Be My Valentine

Done by: Jed

i didn't made it.

nevertheless, the grp rly did well in their imc. no doubt. all the best for their report in NY. =)

ok. just a tweeny weeny confession i wanna make.

Im nervous abt tml's celebration of learning(Marketing debrief)

U noe. being my last day in sch and all. I hope my advert gets showcase tml. ok. im nt tt uptight abt it, but i been getting it for the past 2 semesters tt i fear i dun live it up tis time round.

Alrite yaoh peeps muz be tinking im boasting and all tt man. But to be honest here, im not a fine student. I thought i was, before i enter poly man. Wif my grades at tt time, going anywhere(let's not talk abt the elite jcs) was juz a pretty darn breeze. As much as u might know, im nt tt student tt u wanna show ur mama abt. I failed when i was in yr 1, and tt pretty sums up my life man. I couldn't care less abt anything. Skipping schs and lects were juz a norm for me. Even feigning sick for mc. Man i tell ya, the doc sees me once a mth for tt yr man.(cos i get free consultation) Either ways, im not a A student, im not even so much a B student. GPA is like crap, n i noe darn well i wun be seeing myself in SMU either. When i entered marketing, it took a turn. I finally knew wad was i supposed to do. Man, i suck at research, and reports aint my kinda thing. But it was the flare for doing adverts man. Videos, posters. I done it all, and i rly love every min of it. I believe tis is the thing tt rly set me apart from the rest man. You can talk abt reports all day when u haf no clue wad makes ur customers tick.

There's another way you can get into celebration of learning. Either u haf a fine report, or a wicked idea. That's abt it i guess. For me, i juz wanna leave TP knowing i can do sth out thr. It's not the grades, but the ability as we all say. Either ways, i dun wanna see the effort go to waste.

the late nites, the time and effort. thanks to all tt was a part and behind me for doing this.

My mum esp. she aint complained on anything i done before. She just pretty much let me spread my wings and fly. My biz, my studies. She was never worried and always behind me. Thanks.

CNY day 4

Went back to church today. been awhile i guess. Had alot of ppl going eh!!!! ure back? sth tt i never thought i'll be hearing for myself. but seeing andrew thr was rly a joy. Been awhile since i last met him, we exchanged few words all cheery n smiling. hmm, rly one of my closer fren in the past. everybody. come back soon.

We had tis lao yu sheng session earlier on. pretty funny kinda thing, everybody squeezing tgt wif one hand holding a chopstick, n others a stick trying to lao sth up.

After tt i juz went home n fell aslp. until now. 1+am. LOL omg. hw am i gg to slp now!

Anyway, some photos

sheng yi xing long

a very tired jed

lol my hair rocks

uncanny resemblence of uryuu from bleach

day 4 - im so proud. im wearing white for the past few days of cny

omg. i want this.

dashes of life and dreams

Source: http://www.flickr.com/photos/urline/955501040/
Art: Jed

this is crap man. if onli i haf more time to take my own pics other den googling it. Den again, it's juz a past time before i start on. DOTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

8am. juz came home after a nite of fun. watched cj7 starred by stephen chow. OMG. it's rly hilarious. n the alien is damn cute. LOL. stephen nv fails to humor us with his self-humiliation humor. gosh. we're such suckers.

Tawny port red wine. it looks brown i know. i kept it for 10+ yrs. nw it's friggin sweet tt it scares me.

Day 2/3 of cny. lol i wonder hw long can i keep tis up.

Source: http://www.onemanbandwidth.com/
Art: Jed

random

juz a few pics of update. And i realised. cny is abt being wif rly ur loved ones. i totally see the change of mood from morning to nite. Even though the new place is small, but it's rly cosy. i guess tt's all it matters.

This is the crappiest starbucks i eva been to. In compass pt. dun ever go thr.

1. They forgot my order

2. They serve me crap mocha frap

3. I bet my cup is a grande. i ordered a venti.

4. Derrick's venti hot choc is so friggin huge

My dad sandals i wore on chi new yr's eve to eat dinner wif my granny.

Black n Gold combi. like takashi. AWESOME.

Wad i wore for cny day 1.

well to start off. HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR.

GONG XI FA CAI. well sum whr along tt line.

Actually. i dislike cny. the pineapple tarts are gd though. rest is just. a phase of life tt u go thru yearly. ANGBAO? aiya. i also dun haf access to the money. hw do u tink i haf near ahem* k in my bank! visiting relatives is also a big NONO for me. It's like u only see one another once per yr, the rest of the 364 days u dun even bother how are they. wad's da point! and lastly.

THE CHINESE NEW YEAR SONG!!!

for a reason instead of chinese i typed chiong. ONLY MEANT ONE THING. get rdy for the cny chiongsua. but whose side will it be? hmm.

IM GG TO BE AN OPTIMIST AND GO GET SOME ANGBAO AND EMBEZZLE IT MYSELF. HEH HEH.

And the world will shine for you.

it has. and it will always be.

Wad my dad has been teaching me lately.

Weird night

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GUYSON N FU HAO.

Had dinner at Rice Table wif da peeps! It was rly gd as usual. More importantly it was a very rare hangout for us. This year however, was a whole lot different. Wif so much differences in the grp now.

Honestly. F**k The Mainstream. Brotherhood Sticks. whether u like it or not. We came tgt cos we just want company to hang out. Yes. thr might be differences. But it's not enough for you guys to break it up.

After that we drove to Timbre to chill out. Quite a big commotion there. Due to the delay of our car messing around breaking wadeva laws there is like driving the opp direction in a one way road. I told ya, Guyson's car is the daredevil course. Once u sit in it for mths, You will never fear death again. Anyway will just like to apologise for yst's commotion, juz like to emphasise that both Guyson n Daniel are awesome drivers, juz tt Guyson is more kayu(BLUR). tt's all. nth to be angry abt.

Oh yea. Our newest BOMB on our block, VANESSA came to join us! A real sporty chick tt packs a hella lotsa punch!

TIMBRE NITE WAS CRAZY!!!! We were high on alcohol and all da contrabands, esp me cos i saw sum crap tt nite. Goodfellas the band was awesome, rocking with hits after hits that got all of us reeling wif aphrodisiac. LOL wad a term. Climax of the night was our very own VANN going up to the stage and rumpin to the "Hey YAAAAAA~" SHE'S DA BOMB MAN! gt all of us on cloud 9 for awhile. hahaha. Ok. we have her video but she's insistant that we dun post it. SOOOOOOOOO. pm me if u wanna see. =D

After that, we went to Lau Par Sar to have supper. Some of them are reeling from the effects of the alcohol. Well, sum were just acting high. LOL. tt's so plain sad! Fu hao taking the spoon to the toilet was classic though. Everyone was ranting nonsense. LOL.

Finally, we were departing from home when Derrick and I made a detour for Tan Tock Seng Hospital. He broke into rashes i tink. Patches of red blotch. Like frog skin kinda thing. He had a jab and went to slp. while i was walking around aimlessly in TTSH. man. it was damn freaky and gay nite. OK. i dun wanna type anymore. so i will juz upload some photos. the end.

Rice Table

I'm not drunk.

Ok. i gt a friggin long tongue.