woots. finished prison break 3. I tink i haf already finished wat i wanted to do eva since i received my enlistment letter. Now i shall go to slp. lol. 4.26am gosh.

I LOVE THIS PEOPLE. YES I RLY DO.

Look wat my peeps done for me

jc: pls take care of bh for me. i noe ur weird methods will make him a happy hunter. i'll take care of ur stickman!

I tot typing out in smses to everyone is a waste of my money, since i rly know who visits the blog(i tink everybody but i refuse to find out!) but many thanks to you guys for the presents n blessings. This past few weeks i have really been a pain in the ass, but thanks for putting up wif me.

No. it is not the air con room tt i will missed, or the dota n my computer, it's not the late nite driving n clubbing. I really tink, i'll miss you guys the most. (i tink i say tt to everyone.....) no la rly! I'll miss the laughters of the gals, the gay junchen and the macho guys and one lil raymond. I shall come out macho too ya? hahahahaha! i certainly hope so, even though i will be quite gay to ask my fren accompany go toilet. However blessed i am, i shall not push my luck too far. LOL. owell.

I noe perhaps by the time i return, the cg would look different wif new faces, and some of us scattered around. Before that happens, continue to love one another u noe. Take care of jc, he nids the love n concern onli a particular irritating gal tt i cannot stand can provide him.

But most imptly, rmb the fire of tis cg. Rmb the times thr was onli 3 person in cg meeting, when the cg was on the verge of disband to the river of REVIVAL that hit us and kept us strong n united. Rmb the times when we stand together in times of crisis, how we dance in front of the Lord together, how we dota together, how we stayed in starbucks chatting, how we grow together, the late nights conference calls to pray for people.

REMEMBER ALL THIS, BRING THIS FIRE WITH YOU, AND SHINE AT WHEREVER YOU ARE.

Our vision was to build this fire so strong that everybody else catches it. Now is ur time to burn n shine. Dun waiver and take a step back. Instead step forward with no regrets, knowing that it's your time. Dun be sad of our outcome, do remember we're always have a part of each other to fall back on and move with you. GOGOGO. MY E410.

jeremiah 2:21 "yet i had planted in you a noble vine, a seed of highest quality"

- Courtesy of isabel

Pieces of Jed

A part of me wants to be a T3 to see an old fren. Another part wants to be wif the guys at Phuture. Yet i chose to stay at home. Im quite taken aback by a sentence from a friend. He said,

"Wouldn't it be nice, if we get to live life twice?"

First u go thru all ur trials and tribulations, so in your 2nd life. You will make all the right decisions. It was a casual remark from him, but it's really got me thinking. If i were to make the decision, will i do it differently?

In the bible, it says that your tongue is a double edged sword. now, i rly tink it is. my words and action has caused 2 of my dear ones' life and destiny. If they changed for the better, im rly proud. but sad to say it isn't. Sometimes it comes back to haunt me,

"if. i said it this way. if. i have not stepped in. if. i didn't do it. Will things be different today? Will she changed her mind? Will he be alright now?"

This burden has weigh me down for quite sum time. Many at times i said i let go, but i noe i cant. The blood is already on my hands. Once again, this is a time when i am once again handed a knife. Issue being, shld i take it up. Somehow, in all the blood that is split, mine was the deepest wound.

MY LIFE IN 6 DAYS

HAPPY BIRTHDAY URICA!

Today marks the day of knowing ya for 1 friggin yr! Last yr was a kfc treat from ya. This yr is a nasi lemak treat from us! lol. ok tt's crappy. It's been a crazy yr for all of us. but wad the heck! Kampong glam fish n chips plus mixed sausages wif sheesha is just awesome! lol. im crazy.

Now im trying to load prison break while im blogging. 8 episodes to complete in 7 days, but

IT SHALL BE DONE!

bystander UPDATES!

Alritey people. We have relocated ourselves to a new location in Far East Plaza #03-49 under Neutral Plus currently. Any Orisue Spring 08 is now available in store and our website @ http://www.bystander.com.sg/.

Furthermore.

The lookbook for Orisue Spring 08 is up! special thanks to our models. You can look it up at http://www.bystander.com.sg/blog/stylebook/orisue_spring2008.html

Also just to let you readers know where is the new shop located. I went for a 'recce' for you guys. lol! First u go up the escalator from the main entrance of Far East Plaza to the 3rd floor.
Stroll in to this stretch of shops.
On the right you will find the shop "Neutral Plus"!
Yes we are currently relocated here. So do come and visit!

Many thanks for the support so far, and enjoy shopping during this GSS period. =)

Graduation Nite @ TP

Yes. we finally made it thru. 3 yrs of late nites, quarrels, fun, laughter, tears all ends up to tonight. Tonight is the nite we truly rejoice and immense in this 3 yrs of glory tightly compressed to the 15 sec of receiving your diploma.

YES. WAD IS MARKETING WIFOUT OUR STUNTS!? After that nite, im sure everybody knows marketing students are pretty notorious. GOSH.

Anyway this are sum fotos. sry the post came late. Tried getting as many pics from everybody. Owell.

Our course manager that noes our behavior all so well.

Chuan n ME

We didn't made it to commandos

Look at kb's sly face! OMG.

Hopefully army is gg to rid him from me soon! GO COMMANDOS!

im fat. he's drunk!

Wad's left of the brotherhood. the rest didn't graduate!

Yes. they are that darn notorious! KAT I WANT THE FOTOS!
u haf no idea how mani cameras we're facing tt day.
Fancy tt. He's not eating chwee kueh. rite mr chwee kueh?

yay. glenda. LOOK AT THIS FOR YOUR FINAL DESTINATION IN POLY! IT'S ALL WORTH IT! except for the rental of the gown. oh man. nasty!

It has come to my notice that my blog is receiving abit of publicity lately. However i felt no need to refrain on my actions and words. Nope, i tried keeping a private blog for all tt nasty things, but to no avail. i cant handle 2 blogs. Moreover, i will like to kip this blog as raw as possible, which real feelings inside. Im not an actor, as much as i want to be a role model, i want people to see the real JED. not restrained by people's words, by people's thoughts. Life was never a bed of roses. It will be lying if i said it was. So why not take it into stride, that ure reading the chronicles of jed for urself? no censorship, pure raw feelings, for u guys to noe the real ME. Learn from my experience, watch my mistakes and tell urself never to head tt path. This is the advice i give to my readers. Im sure, no1 wants to read abt a vague jed that is already so secretive. =D smiles to all who been following me all this while. Im leeching from your attention. =D

Dun get so confused people. If you're nice, i'll know it.

IMMATURE RANTS

i felt alot better today after playing dota.

Let me just warn you people first, whoever that visits this blog. beware or feel my WRATH.

people are commenting/complaining that im acting odd and crazy lately.
YEA YEA YEA IT'S ARMY. SO SHUT UP ALREADY.

cant i just be left alone, without the whole world telling me my time is up? no im not emo, im not crazy, im juz trying to adjust myself to getting caged up. so honestly. shut up.

is that strong enuff? or u nid me to stoop low wif vulgurities? did i mention i hate to use that? it's crude and brute. usually i wun gif a hoot once sum1 starts ranting it. i'm veri nonchalent to it in fact. I feel that people who use this has limited vocab and likes to yap alot like a pathetic dog in wadeva ways tt catches its owner's attention. I also feel that they haf low self esteem, n needs this puny words to make them feel all big n ego. Nevertheless, pathetic. So think twice whether u wanna use the limited vocab that u haf. I dunnid to be As my english and still pawn you.

i learnt i nid to cut ties and relationships. I cant believe people are so petty that they forget everything that i done for them when i did sth wrong. i HONESTLY dun tink it's wrong. notifying u a change of mind the nxt day n 1 wk notice is more than sufficient. If u seem to forget everything. FINE. just pay me back the sum tt you owe me during your fall. Honestly, how can people forget tt u done so much for them and choose to get angry? pls, i dun nid ur sympathy. i dun nid your money. on the contrary u seem to owe me instead. quite a huge sum in fact! let's see u cough tt out now. Stop whining like a kid, and show me sum guts by paying up to tell me u dunnid me! maybe i'll have more respect for u that way.

Morale - dun let ppl leech you till ure dry den u wake up n cut them out. do it early. those ingrates will never learn.

Anyone who knows the person and wants to share this post wif him. Well, you just caught me ranting, if u tink it's alright just do it. Cos i can do the same to you too. Simple as that.

I tink i haf been a fair nuff fren thru n thru. I carried u thru ur valleys when u cant do the same for me. I do my best for people. But no1 EVERS appreciate it. Well, today i had my fill. enuff is really enuff. i noe i noe. i have a bad record, so everybody thinks it's OKAY. i dun wanna be labelled all my life. So if u tink so, cut me off. I tried my best, i went the distance. Today is the day i say im giving up. give n take. so far. u haf taken everything and gave nth back. Today is the day i cut my losses n say farewell! Cos u shown me friendship is not worth it wif you.

God, You haf seen wad i went thru. I have never blamed it on others except myself. I done so much for them, yet im not expecting myself to be high and mighty. I just want a lil sth back for friendship. So far, friends let me down time and time ago. No matter how much i sow my time in them, how much i done for them. All i get back is vulgurities, haters when im down. All i got was nonchalent replies and comments. All i got was talking behind my back. NO one has tried going thru my valleys at all. All they did was complain and lament when i stop doing things and helping them. All they did was laugh at my demise and gossip on my fall. I blamed it on myself, my friendship was true to all of them, yet i failed to get their friendships. I haf failed in my calling, it's a wrong ground tt im sowing. Today i say im giving up, unless You show me a way in this. Im cutting all ties which i tink is not growing. Cutting my losses and consolidating my capital. Nothing personal, just biz.

FUNNY IMAGE

well. i thought it was funny. Had quite a few conversations recently, so i decided to leave u guys a quote by a famous scientist.

"Science without religion is lame."
"Religion without science is blind."
-Albert Einstein

WHAT ARE KIDS READING THESE DAYS!

ok. dun laugh. i was slacking in the library at a neighbourhood shopping centre wif xy the other day. (cus tt bugger ahem*) lol. Anyway we went to sit at the children's section and look at the lil berserkers rampage around! found a book beside me and opened up to read. To my horror, i found this.
A book about forklifts?! why in the world will a kid read that?
Look at the mechanism! GOSH
And you thought BTT was difficult.

Too much motion pictures have stifled a young mind's ability to imagine. Me i mean.

As you can see. You dun need to be in that scope of work to have enough knowledge to write the book. All you need is to wish and poof, u can write already. So overall, this book...

sleepy @ 1.40AM

ok. seems like i couldn't take the change of sleeping at 8pm and now im yawning and rubbing my eyes like a lil kid tt's been kept out of bed by the late night cartoon network re-runs. im just kinda bored right now, not really in the mood for dota. And drinking/eating is out of the qns. in fact, i will just want to sit in front of the com, and do absolutely nothing. But den, i rmbed my theory on nobody likes emo post on my blog, cos they wun tag. And yes, being a tag whore that i am. Im gg to post sth HAPPY.

This is wad i cook for lunch today. I know, it's a lil burnt. but come on. if u cant stand alil carbon in ur system muz as well die now. i mean. aiya. u noe wat i mean.

it's happy food! or wat joachim will say. tt bugger. STOP DRINKING. shldn't haf thought u how to mix. -_-"

im been writing a lot of stuff in my sermon book lately. The thoughts i had in sermon, which is not rly related at all. It's just random thoughts in my head n i pen it down. I found out sth abt me.

I THRIVE IN PEOPLE'S VALLEYS

I realised. i haf no will of myself. Only in people's downfall, i find my meaning. When people thrive, life is pretty aimless for me. Im a sadist. gosh.

"What good are you, if you are no longer needed?"

hmm. intriguing. u noe, i no longer like to share my problems nowadays. I just simply dunno wat to say. i will just sulk. or SMILE. but honestly, do they care? not rly either. do i bother? apparently yes. BUT.

"what more do you ask of them?"

i dunno. everybody's nice. a few irritating ones. but yes. they're nice people. yes. wad more could i ask?

"what do u need actually? advice? solutions? comfort? or MERE sympathy?"

i haven gt an answer for this actually. i used to tink i would like them to offer solution or advice. yet i slowly realise, either they're not up to it, or i just plainly dun listen. it then slowly turns to the sympathy look, sad to say.

"what are you then?"

Im defensive when people explain my situation to me. yet i wish people will know. I wanted gd advice, but it often came to sympathy that never seems to fill up this space. I tried using other things which im not proud to speak of, yet it just widen the space.

"why do you tink so much?"

What is of the norm to you, might be world aparts to others

this is opening up a whole new level of jed huh people? bet u guys DIDN'T KNOW.

well, i couldn't bother anyway. wad more can someone with 18 days ramble about.

A WARNING TO ALL OF YOU.

do not. I MEAN DO NOT. ask me when i enlist. i told u guys a million times. if you couldn't be bothered to rmb. dun bother asking. u wun rmb anyway. AND I DO NOT WANT TO BE REMINDED ON HOW MANY DAYS I HAF LEFT. MY COUNTDOWN IS MY WHIMPY SELF SYMPATHY. I DO NOT NEED YOU TO RUB IT IN. thanks alot! =D

im happy happy happy!~

My nose is not dropping off afterall

Finally felt so much better today. much thanks to slping the past few days away. Slping at 7-8pm everyday and waking up at 530am everyday. Seems everybody is ill lately, take gd care of urself peeps and drink more water ya! I remember dumping all the medicine tgt in my mouth n gulp lotsa water. rmb. juz drink lotsa water. LOL

Now thr's a need for me to slack. since it's afterall the final countdown.

Don't be scared

i could never quite get why one single action could bring forth a great reaction of everything. I realise i refuse to learn from my lessons at times. I have seen right in my face myself how one's action made me the way i am. Yet im following the very footsteps that one's tread on. Perhaps i never knew i had tt much in me. I never meant to stumble anyone, I just didn't know i was that much of a block. I know i wun get any better, but i should struggle never to stumble. Perhaps this is the just mindless one at work.

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Im falling sick. i feel my temperature rising. my body's aching. my forehead is burning. my nose is dropping off. my throat's feeling funny.

Im just being whiney.
there's nothing much to blog about these days. nothing worth mentioning going thru my mind. oh yea, except army is darn near and i cant do anything about it. Maybe if i could get hold of my head shaving video i'll post it up for you guys to laugh at me. I'll just going to HECK CARE everything in my life till i enlist. I couldn't bother to do anything either.

joce: ahh? ahhh! ahhh~ sry i rly dunno wad to respond to that. chat some time ya, rather den do the ahh thing. lol.

emi: it's not the first time i shaved my head. wad's the big surprise? if ure plastic surgery till u become an asian michael jackson. maybe.. JUST MAYBE I'LL GO AHH!~

jason: it's not exactly crewcut. but yea. i'll go wif wadeva u say since u mention handsome. =D

v: fringe is superficial. u got to look further.

ly: SEEN SAW DONE

xy: -.-"

guy: when will u guys gif up. first jap. now hk?

did i mention i dun like a spammer tt starts wif v?

MOVED!

yes peeps. STOREROOM is no longer in use. we have MOVED! Location wise we will let you peeps know again! ok. we're just playing for fun. since we gt to remake our namecards!

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On a side note

people who knows me well, will know wad this means. nope. it's not army.

What if i told u guys. i watched IRON MAN on the big screen... AGAIN TODAY!?

smiles to joce*

Rest of the post is all emo. so dun read. i just nid sum place to vent it out.

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my mood went a new low today. my bottled up feelings came poof* again. i was emotionless. i was just stone cold. my heart was aching badly, i knew i nid to look away, yet i cant help wondering. Being slammed in the face, i can only walk away. Im sorry. Im rly petty, cos i cant take another fall. I regretted doing that, but i dunno wad else i could do. Now my heart is heavy, and it aches, yet i could no longer weep, to make myself better. You once asked me, who was the closest to me. I said you. tt sentence probably killed me. somehow i hope u see this, yet i hope u dun. i haf no reason to stumble you, cos it is my double-edged sword. my destiny, my life, my burden. maybe someday all this will change, but i cant afford falling now. im rly scared of it this time. so let it go jed. just let it go. if we were meant to reconcile, sum day it will be.

woohoo. movie6.net juz added a link for ironman. now i feel tt i shld spend my money on supper.

4 days. WOW

been 4 days since i posted. tt's pretty long i guess, comparing wif the 1 post per day routine i followed. pretty out of the norm to not post i guess. hah! (i juz peeled off a layer of skin on my gum. now im looking forward to ulcer)

ANYWAY. just a small update on this past week which is nth much to talk abt since i always wake up at nite and dota till morning.

Mon - I woke up at nite. so yea. SUPPER

Tues - 'date' wif jerica. met up wif xy n guy. SUPPER AGAIN wif J BOY. HAPPY BIRTHDAY J BOY.

Wed - clubbing plan was threw off. it's being labour day eve. I rmb gg out tt nite. bt i cant rmb where.

Thurs - Chailian's bdae HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY bt i noe u dun visit the blog. so wad the heck. we bought ANNA SUI's perfume for her. if u all dunno wat's tt. hang out wif me more often. seriously u nid to. Anyway, we den realised sum1 bought her tt alr, and our boss gave her gucci bag. OUCH. 800 bucks dmg! and her 21st being held at the corridor is just. hugeeee... we covered dunno how many units' space that day.

Fri - Went to cell. HI JOACHIM. ty sean for letting me leave my bag there. Supposedly to club at phuture today. But i reached there late and the tix were sold out. even our connections couldn't get us in. MISSED OUT A GREAT DEAL OF FUN. nvm. thr's owaes next wed and fri and wed n fri(LY I'LL LOOK FORWARD TO SEE MAMBO QUEEN IN ACTION SOON, and no sy, IM NOT MAD.)

Sat 12AM MORNING - Went to watch IRON MAN wif dan. it ROCKS. REALLY ROCKS. but we were too broke and had to go hm to cook our own supper. i realised i have not eaten the entire day except for sum refreshments and sean's hse. Anyway my noodle consist of cuttlefish balls and crabsticks and egg! woots wholesome meal at 4am. it's like breakfast i tell ya!

ok! im gg off to shower/dota. till den. stay nice and dun be naughty =D

P.S. DID I MENTION IRONMAN ROCKS!?

Timbre Night back to back!

Ok. im feeling not so cranky now. Finally got my friggin slp. Reached hm on sun morning at 6am, slacked awhile and headed down to church. With the companionship of 2 red bulls, i didn't doze off, unlike the 2 NSF sitting beside me! hahaha! PWNED! Anyway i wasn't in the best of mood when i dun slp, i'll feel SUPER CRANKY. I even sort reprimanded zh for being gay. but come on.

HE'S FRIGGIN GAY. WAD KIND OF GUY TOUCHES U BY THE WAIST! and yes. if u gayshits are all angry and pissed wif me for saying this, slit ur wrist n just die!

yea.. im still feeling cranky. my dad scolded me just to wake me up at 8pm. which i haf no idea why.

Anyway Fri nite was timbre wif the aaron, jc, kel n i. It wasn't really much, since we only had 1 bottle of beer each. They're pretty quiet ppl i realised wifout gals around. and the band performing wasn't much to speak of either. darn boring!

Sat nite. LOL. was timbre wif the brotherhood. As usual, a bottle was open for this occasion. Goodfellas was there to rock the place. And we were labelled as the 'gay boys'. i bet it's derrick's hairband. LOL. We sat in front of the stage from the first set till their last. And they dedicated their last song to us. After tt was rocher tau huay and dota till morning at sum lanshop. They refused to go hm! You can rly see me whining and shouting at around 4+ am in the morning in the lanshop. YES. IM TT CRANKY WHEN I DUN SLP.

Anyway, these are sum photos.

Fri Nite

drunkards!

Sat Nite

GoodFellas!

Buggers!

Rich Dad Poor Dad

Today King passed me a book for my 'discipleship'. LOL, it's called "Rich Dad, Poor Dad" I shall be blogging what i learnt and experienced in this blog so that,

1. I haf a place to refer back and look through whenever i need it.

2. Everybody who are willing to learn will hopefully get something out of it at the end of the day.

Simple as that. I hopefully think everybody can get something out of it at the end of the day. If you dun, no worries, it's just a lifestyle. I wun be sharing much into detail of the book, u can get the book yourself. I'll just be sharing some gist that i realised after reading.

Ok to start off, how many of you have actually given thought about your own future? What are you going to be? I have bizmen, bankers, investors, teachers, etc. among my midst. Yet, i do know some of them are clueless about their future. To them, now is just going for uni to get a degree. But anyone knows what comes after that? This is everybody's STEP 1. Proceed reading once u are clear of this question. =)

Remember when we're younger, or even right till now. Our parents only told us a goal in life,

"Study hard and hopefully you get a gd stable and secure job after u get a degree."

Once they see their kids hit this stage. They felt that the kids are secured for life. However, in this new era. Do you still think this mentality will still work?

No doubt about it. In their generation of baby boomers(kids after the WW2), their mentality forged by their parents at tt time was to study hard, and wif a gd academic qualifications, you will get a secure job to SUPPORT your family. Note their differences between the context then and now. In their generation, they want to support their family. Nothing more den tt. But can you safely say the same now? Come to think abt it, i bet many of you guys have heard about throwing a stone at anyone in the streets and ure very likely to hit a graduate that holds a degree. I mean, there are TONS of fresh graduates now, but how many of them actually have a job? Or a job that they like and enjoyed doing? Do take note that, even if u get a degree at the end of the day. You're just one of the MANY fishes in the ocean, prepared but INEXPERIENCED to fend for yourselves. So, do you still think the past ideology of study hard ensure a gd SECURE job for yourself?

One more issue i will like to address is this. What is ur goal in life? Is it just to SUPPORT your family needs? or live life comfortably and PROVIDE your family wants? It's very different if you give it some thought. Support is to gif sufficiently for their needs only. Providing family wants is giving abundently to what they desire(Europe tour, studying sth tt they like and not conform by society needs)

Someone once said this, "Money cant buy you happiness. But without money, there wun be happiness to speak of in the first place." I noe u drama mamas will go nooooooooo, love conquers all. But let's be realistic, can love buy u food to eat when ure starving? will u be happy when ure starving? Just give it some thought before you reply me, honestly.

Back to topic. Let's say, today you finally got a job with an income of 2.5k. to many. it's like WAH WAH WAH. 2.5k! But let's get back to reality. How much money do you really have end of the day?

Income - 2.5k - (I assume you dun take money from your parents anymore)
CPF deduction?(ppl say the money is still yours. pls. u tink u can get it back when u retired? u tink u can make it to the ever increasing retiree age? u tink it's enuff to cope till u die when u retire?)
Expenses - Varies according to your age and status. hp bills? food? entertainment(drinking/pubbing/clubbing/chalet) transport?(taxi, bus mrt) (If you're married, house installment, car installment, kids' needs etc.)
Parents - Even if you parents dun ask you for it, you got to give them some money for their daily livelihood(food, electrical bills, blah blah blah) Especially if they have retired, you will have more financial burden from them.
Other expenses - Varies on person. (medical bills blah blah blah)
End of the day - How much do you have? What are you going to do with the puny amount? to save? (dun even talk about invest)

Please do note that 2.5k is quite a huge amount that we think we can achieve for a fresh grad. So, after this, let's give it some thought. Do you think that the 2.5k you're holding now sufficient to provide your family needs? Can we even think about providing for your family WANTS from the remaining sum?

You know at times, we wonder, why are we learning stuff in school that we will never even use it in our friggin life after we graduate? (algebra, sciences) Common thinking will state that cos we wanna get gd grades and hopefully get a secure job for life. but is it always this matter now in this big ocean full of fishes that has similar or better qualifications den u? If you tink having the highest qualifications can get u a pretty gd job, have u wonder how old will u be then? How much time do u haf left before u make it in life? What the children needs nowadays, is not about sciences and algebras. It's skills to cope in this saturated environment. Financial literate, how to manage your finance. They need new ideas to help them compete with the society. New knowledge to give them an edge in the workplace. Not how the cells are make up and x+y=z.

In the book, there's 2 tracks in life that i will like to relate to. One track is called the 'rat race' This track is what your parents went through. i'll just provide a gist here.

Study hard. get a stable secure job. earn some money. the money is good. able to live life comfortably. able to provide all your needs and some wants. however you slog all day, finding no time to enjoy life. u tink u can enjoy life once u earned enough, cos ure saving up.

After that, u finally met sum1 u love. u decided to get married. it's really awesome. 2 incomes together is a bliss. You guys start to think about the future and started buying car, an apartment and have kids. Life's really good, though ur income is barely able to cover the installments for the car and apartment.

Your kids starts to grow up. You find ur burden increasing, with a NEED to prepare saving for their education to come, their expenses in the future(pocket money), the apartment and car is starting to take it's toll on you. Cos u used to haf enough for your apartment and car, now is so much more. SUDDENLY, ur parents retired! You find urself wif a new financial burden, to provide their daily livelihood needs as their pension(CPF) seems unable to provide sufficiently enough. With age comes illness. Medical bills are piling up, electrical bills, many many bills.

You will find yourself slogging just to make ends meet. Working harder, so as to climb to promotions to meet the increasing needs by day. U find that, you work to provide needs and u can no longer afford wants like u used too. You realised that hey! im so old alr. why am i still working? i shld be enjoying life like wat i planned out when im younger! Your savings never seems to increase, not like it used to. N you think to yourself, was the stable job rly worth it? hell i dun even enjoy it! Wad if? den again. It's too late for u to jump out of the track of the rat race. All your life, ure scurrying like a rat, trying to survive and make ends meet. Slogging as hard as u can, and even when u enter the grave. U never seem to enjoy life at all.

ouch.

For the other track, the Fast Lane. To be Continued. =) it's 4.39am and i want to dota.

8:18pm - Testing Results

Since there's arising of questions recently, i thought i finally end my so called 'test'. It isn't anything much also, but sth tt i thought of recently.

P.S. - I KNOW THIS POST WILL MAKE ME SUPER UNPOPULAR WIF GALS.

Haf you guys noticed yet?

yep, there's pics of naked woman in my MSN display pictures lately. I shan't post the 'obscene ones'(that is really naked) but just a mild one here for ya to have a look.

(if u want the link pm me)

This shoot was taken by Heidi Slimane best known for his works at Dior Homme that took an active role in photography for his own blog. One of the subjects for his shoot is Kate Moss(as shown by this pic), a super model who posed topless for this shoot.

This brings me to a point. What is OBSCENE to you?

I suddenly have this thought recently when people started to comment that my previous wallpaper on my phone is obscene and should not be shown in public.

This is my previous wallpaper. From an art gallery, "Insa buy my love"

As you can see from this picture, it's purely a piece painted on the wall. Yet in the eyes of some, it's portrayed as obscene and not safe for public viewing.

Well, what is art then? The effort of artists trying to capture God's creations in it's most basic and raw form, often results in drawing of Man in their most raw form of beauty. Is that art? or pure obscene pornography?

I personally like what Heidi Slimane did for his shoot on Kate Moss. It has a nice touch to it, there wasn't anything to complicated in the shots that he took. No fanciful clothes, hairdo or blatantly trying to show off his shots or art in tt matter. He just took simple shots of what i will like to define as raw beauty. Nothing too complicated to comprehend, no blatant show off. Just beauty at it's best. This shots are not shots that will make you grow all horny and lustful. It's just very simple admiration of beauty. That's all.

ok. now i sound like a porn director. kudos

I hope im not sounding like im high and mighty and i know art like pastors knows the bible(i got c6 for art in sec sch). I'm juz saying what's in my mind, and how i feel when i see this. Afterall, it's very much again,

PERSONAL PREFERENCE

Different people have different limits or ideas on what things in the world are, nudity? art? vulgur? raw? Many at times, it's the world that set the limits for us, and we ourselves follow it. Remember in the bible, Adam and Eve were naked from the start, God made them this way. It was only when they ate the fruit that they felt ashamed of themselves and hit themselves with leaves. So whose ways are right?

A conversation that i had wif Megan awhile back definitely proves my earlier point.

We were discussing on the word 'fuck'. Many of us know it as a vulgurity, but why is it a vulgurity? Can anyone explain? Is it because it's used for a term in sex? it is because it's a term that someone used it when they're really angry and want to get sth across? or is it because the world deem it as a hush hush 'vulgurity' that we have to follow to conform to the world so called 'moral' values? My stand in that conversation is definitely a vulgurity, and people who knows me wun see it use vulgurities in a quarrel. Cos it's crude and low, which i wun stoop to their level. They know that i use vulgurities as a joke, never too serious. Cos it isn't something wonderful to sprout out of your mouth in the first place. For Meg's stand, it's sth tt she used when she's really angry, cos she couldn't find a better word that gets the point across straight. Both of us have our point nevertheless. And yes both of us are christians which meant we couldn't say that in the first place. But have you all wondered why was it term as vulgurities in the first place? Cos it's bad and all? What if u say shit! in the future do u tink it will be term as vulgurity too? Remember, at times, it might very be what the world defines and what you decide to follow.

So my test was to keep portraying the shots that Heidi did on my MSN display picture and see how many will actually noticed and commented that it's art or indecent pornography. Sad to say, all the comments i have now is still, "why u post naked pics!" instead of other point of views which i yet to receive. I was just trying to find out, how many people will think of it at a different perception that it's art instead of pornography. Besides, the pics were very tastefully done in my opinion, so it's very simple for people to make up their mind. I did not mention anything that it was a photoshoot by a famous designer and all, so as not to change the original perception of the people either. It was very basic to them, on how they define nudity.

At the very end of the day, it's still how we think and perceive of things that makes us different. Im not saying that anyone has a wrong thinking cos it's just personal perception. I like the idea that everybody is different, cos i dun want so many jeds running around thinking the same or vice versa. I believe you guys dun want it too. I also dun like the idea of people going around telling others how they go against the flow of being 'normal' or blatantly showing off that they do not conform to society. I feel this lot of people are really insecure in the sense, by posting up links of how different they think they are from others, and EMPHASIZING that they do not want to be the same from others, or "HEY I TINK DIFFERENTLY FROM YOU GUYS." in their conversation or writings. I think the best way for people to feel that you're different, in through your daily life, the character that you exudes, not the countless articles or writings that you keep EMPHASIZING that you're DIFFERENT.

wait a min, am i doing the same?

7.07pm

woots. just woke up 2 hrs ago. Great, i wasted a gd 1 day away.

Anyway yesterday was bystander's photoshoot for Orisue. It was pretty well done this time. And we kinda love it. So many thanks to our photographer, stylist and models and of cos PICTURE ME for their studio. All of you had done AWESOME this time. Many thanks!

Keep a lookout for the lookbook!

the 8 chicken wings last nite has finally taken it's toll on me.

WOMG ULCER. WOMG SORE THROAT.

photoshoot ltr. baaaaaaaaaaa..

maybe it's finally time i muster up courage and do it.

To be there, u must first step in there.

Uncle Ed

ok. knowing uncle ed for so long. i finally took the effort and remembered to link him up in my blog. why? cos his posts are always insightful, that makes ppl like us think.

I remembered knowing him during one of the debates abt chc in the forum. U noe chc being infamous for the PEOPLE, never the church's teachings. We find ourselves discussing about things on what it should be.

I always like an intelligent outspoken person, cos they make me think, and from there i learn.

So our friendship kinda grew and he slowly become my mentor in many things, in biz and in life. It's always delightful to talk to him, cos it's always a gd lesson learnt at the end. yep ty alot!

So people, do read his blog once in a while, you'll learnt sth out of it. Or at least offered a different perspectives in life.

woots. my 365th post = 1 yr of posting!

ok. i noe tt doesn't count. but who cares? it's MY BLOG!

anyway just a lil updates on my life.

We cabbed to bukit timah food centre after service for what the peeps thought was godly food. but we had 5 ppl which was nono to cars' requirement. but one kind hearted taxi driver took us anyway. so here's the scene.

glenda squeezing in the cab. LOL

Food glorious food!

the satay beehoon was awesome as they put it, so was the hokkien mee. i rly rly liked it, when it's uber dry. LOL. owell. im bored and done. THE END!

i wanna be a successful person. 2k!

Being as positive that i am. I decided not to talk abt army anymore.

but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~

the whole world is telling me about it now.

whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!

Anyway, Shyan's doing ok i guess. i haven gt time to visit him since i'm helping his brother tend the shop in his absence. Hopefully, if any1 is visiting him tml can let me noe too ya? thanks alot. The doctor said give him more time. It's really a miracle when the doctor say he wun make it, n now.

I'm facing another crisis in my biz lately. In short, it's just about my big cake might be taken away by a bully who wants a share. nope, the ENTIRE cake. i shan't share more though, till im stepping on top of them. yep!~

survival of the fittest. nth more to it.

EVERYBODY CALM DOWN

ok. let's be calm about this.

The impending doom of shackles by our fellow ARMY has finally got his hold on me.

Date: 5th June 2008
Time: 9.30am
School 1

IT'S ALL COOL. really dun panic

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

IM GG IN SOON. OMG SOON! REALLY SOON!

on a side-note, this is the first time i saw my msn contacts nick change so drastic in a matter of hours. LOL.

Day 2 in Shop

Location: Shop
Time: 5.31pm
Mood: Bored like hell

thank God i have a laptop here. imagine how annoying i can get if i dun haf anything to do. There's supposedly a photoshoot tonight for a new website portal that wants to house our products. I finally got all my models ready and all. And we spend an entire day trying to contact their in charge for the shoot, and they haven been replying or picking up our calls. It's starting to feel like a scam. LOL baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

Honestly dunno why there's people that wants to waste our time by doing so many weird stuff. Told us to do a shoot, after we finally got everything ready, they're not responding. an utter waste of our time. That lady still haf 4 hrs to respond to us. After that it's a simple goodbye to them!!!

BWAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

ok. im rly bored.

hi all. Shyan's getting better, or so the doctor say. If im not wrong, he's conscious and coughing at the moment. Doc say that coughing is good for him, if i haven heard wrong. By thanks for all your prayers so far. I know some of you guys wanna visit him but couldn't cos im currently taking over the shop till this incident is over or Hong's ready to return. Anyway thanks for all your prayers so far. It's really getting better from what i heard, even though it's slow, but it's improving. Thank God for that. =)


here sth's from Hong to you peeps,


"Anyway... Really thanks... I don't know how to thank you for helping me and praying for my brother. When times (that) im in a bad mood, (and) pick on (minor) things to throw my tantrum at ya, now u didn't even hold that at heart and came and help me without a single question. Really sincerely thank u. also to derrick and dan. Thank you all (everybody who prayed for shyan)

On a lighter note

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY KATHIE!

ok! cheers to tis gal who loves to eat potato wif bacon bits in 3am in the morning! hah. tt's basically wat we talk abt every nite when we're in year 1. The only 2 person in WG tt stays up till the wee hours in the morning. HAPPY 21st GAL! cut nigel sum slack la. just drench him in water or sth! anyway this is the craziest bdae party i eva been to, i nv even get to taste the cake! more updates on why below.

Here are the photos:

Mag's annoying finger. later her nipple explode!

my xiao mei on the pic's left, my da jie on my right

Poly ppl!

yr 1 peeps!

random peeps! GUYS
YES GUYS.
kathie my yr1 potato wif bacon bits fren!

HERE IS THE PART ALL HELL BROKE LOOSE!

They started smashing the cake at each other!

OMG THE CASUALTY IS UNBEARABLE!KAT'S MUM. SHE'S CRAZY. LIKE REALLY CRAZY.

i suspect she drank before we came. she started it!!!!
the debris.
emi hiding/lepak one corner. so she wun be caught in the whole dirty incident!




the end! teehee~