didn't make it. hahaha! nvm better luck next time. =) i tink there's a lot of misunderstanding going around lately, i gotta learn how to be a open book next time. heh! i mean, i thought im quite open already. oh well, everybody gotta learn something everyday. =D

So many birthdays coming up lately, I WILL LOVE TO ATTEND ALL ESPECIALLY YOURS LILENG!!!!!!!!!!!!

heh, so many things going on. God prepare my heart and the challenge im going to take on!

Man, this wk has been awfully taxing! im so stressed out by my tp which is tml! Even though i feel i could, i just need that extra assurance.. RWAR. hopefully i wun freaked out like my mum tml.

Anyway i just want to thank God this week for His protection. There's been a lot of theft cases happening lately, 2 psp n 1 ipod have been stolen from my bunk. We have no idea who it could be, but it's really quite disheartening to know. I mean come on, we only have such a meagre sum a month, why steal our precious valuables. As for me, im the VERY careless and VERY easy target to be pry on. From the fact of some habits i have, just really want to thank God that every morning i can wake up to see my hp/ipod/wallet still intact everyday. oh man.

PRAY FOR ME FOR MY TP TML!!! SERIOUSLY! =)

Life on the Moon

long wkend this wk. 3 days! Didn't managed to do much though cos i finished everything on the thurs 1/2day book out. haha caught a movie, went shopping and dinner wif friends.

Oh yea, i caught 2 movies this wk, Angels n Demons which i thought was really gd, and Night at the Museum 2 which is alright only.

I wanted to blog abt Angels n Demons actually, but i dun rly want to be a spoiler, so i shld keep mum till after the movie died down! haha! But a few phrase that i find quite meaningful would be

"People are not perfect. They have flaws, even me." - from a catholic priest in the movie. I find myself nodding my head like how i would respond in church during the movie, haha, pretty weird i noe. I would say this movie didn't have much God-bashing session than it was in Da Vinci Code. It showed how Man often go through means, even when it's not God's will, to help God. Got me thinking really. shall reveal more till den. =)

This wk was pretty much being led by the spirit actually. I find myself doing things that i would not have done, but we will see as things unfold i guess. Just got to keep trusting. =)

And many thanks to the ppl around me who's always willing to be my companions esp during the days im out of camp. Very much appreciate it even though i didn't played my part really well.

AND LASTLY. NXT WK IS MY TP. OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG. PRAY FOR ME! I dun have much confidence in it actually, just got to lean on God's grace! 30th will be the greatest day!

Mothers Day

sry didn't update last wk. Blogger was giving me a problem and i couldn't load up any photos. Anyway i brought my family out for a meal at some hokkien restuarant in Amoy Street. A restuarant tt the family likes to frequent. I was.. having jitters i would say, cos i didn't noe how much will tt cost me! haha!

haha i cant believe this got caught on camera! u can see how.. anxious i was about the meal.. "Good food at my brother's expense!"

Some of the famous dishes in the restuarant.



Happy Mother's Day mum!

After going through some issues in these mths, i really felt i learnt what's more important in life. I understood the meaning of "where your treasure is, there your heart will be." In the past, i would haf been more spendthrift due to how i was brought up by my dad. It's a cycle afterall, he learnt it the hard way, thus does not want me to follow his path too. Well, as a stubborn boy in the family, i had to walk that direction and i too, finally hit the wall. After that, i felt that money is not really as important as my dad used to say. I no longer feel a barrier when i give, no longer pressurise to hold on to that amt of cash in my wallet. It's like everytime i wanted to hold, i will feel, u haf given so much, wad's a little more? No longer am i bounded by the limits, no longer bounded by unforgiveness, broke free of my circumstances. Now, im just trusting God to fulfil His promise for me. I took a long wrong route, wad's done cannot be undone, but im just thankful He didn't make me walk all the way back. =)

Lastly, i just wanna say that im so PROUD of lileng. She shared a great life story that no alot people who have been able to. So many of us haf so many skeletons in the closet, but im glad she's willing to open her closet for us, to show us how Jesus cleaned up her mess for her. =)

Today i saw/heard/touch/felt God.

i couldn't think of any other simpler ways than this. thank you.

happy 21st bdae DERRICK

cheers to the many years ahead old friend. =)

it's almost 8pm! oh man, no time to blog a decent post. it's been so so so so BUSY! hardly any time to sit down other den having meals/driving/in church/chilling out. I promise to blog a decent one when im back this wk on thurs for LABOUR DAY ON FRI! heard MEN's confer is on tt day too. how awesome is that!

HAPPY 21st BDAE JASON

photos are available here

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Lastly, i remembered during cgmeeting when veron shared,

David didn't went up the MOUNTAIN to look for stones, but he went to the stream by the VALLEY to look for stones. And the very stones that he picked, took out Goliath the giant in one shot.

God wont always use only the people at the mountain, but always the people that are going through the valleys, to test them, mould them, and use them mightily for His work. I finally understood. and I will keep holding on to that promise. =)

ICE COLD BEERRRRRRRRRRRRRR

finally got over with ftx. throughout the entire wk all i could tink about was ice cold beer when im done. SOOOO

Timbre!

*photos are taken under influence of alcohol*

*no influence of alcohol, juz one very busy lady with no time for us*

Botak Jones @ Sommerset

time to work on the last 5!

i spend my entire sat at home today. i cant believe it.

All i did the entire day is snack, tv n dota.

POLY DAYS LIFE IS BACK. but definitely not here to stay. =)

I need to be more discipline, nid to control my diet!

aiya heck wif it. full troop exercise for the entire nxt wk to turning operational! n eio is heading to army on the same day! guess, we're all embarking on a new journey!

im blogging cos im really bored now. any1 care to entertain me? =)

I came across this verse on a school building during my trip to medical appt this wk.

Proverbs 1:7 The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge

i remembered when i first read this verse, i did not understand it at all. 5 yrs ago, when i read it, the God i know is not loving at all. He's always this BIG furious God that wants everybody to fear Him. The BIG BULLY! Throughout this 5 yrs, i grew up and became more mature. I realised, that the fear, is not wat i thought it was 5 yrs back. This fear, is not fearing wat God will do to u if u did something wrong, but fearing how much it will hurt Him if u did something wrong. Fear of making him disappointed. It's to honour Him in reverence. After this 5 yrs, He's still BIG as usual, but not that furious after all. He accepted me for who I am, loved me when no one else would. He wants me to fear Him. not in a 'I-WILL-ZAP-YOU-IF-YOU-DO-SOMETHING-WRONG' but to take Him into consideration with every step and action i make.

This coming Easter will mark my 5th year in Church. Time flies. I have grown so much, yet it just seems like im running on a threadmill. Clocking the distance, but end of the day, still at the start. I mentioned to my platoon mate, a Catholic today. It's hard to balance between army and God sometimes. In fact, there shouldn't be a balance from the start, it should be God in you, in everywhere you're in. God in Army. Sad to say, im not quite up to it yet. I still make mistakes, still having doubts from time to time, is it God speaking to me? or me speaking to myself? I still find myself struggling on my own problems, unable to lean on God. I never had, cause i haf never understood it. Sometimes i tink i got it, other times i feel im no where there. Sometimes, i feel i haf just lost it the day i gave up. To build a broken relationship takes time, lots of trust and effort.

Sometimes, i really want to be right back 5 yrs ago. when, everything is just so simple, where being in the presence is just so in reach. Now, apparently my growth in knowledge has driftened me apart from this presence. I need to lift up this veil once again. Cos the bible hasn't say my growth in knowledge will make me fear the Lord. That will probably be my thinking 5 yrs back. but now understanding 'fear of the Lord', i tink i got everything topsy turvy.

I need to fear God, den it will be the beginning of all my knowledge, all the answers that i am seeking for, for myself, for others.

the 6 wks revolution, will be mending my mistakes, breaking the habits, and turning this verse to work correctly for myself.

Today is Good Friday. Today is the day i must learn to take a step.

6 WEEKS REVOLUTION

Blog seems rather dead lately. haven got much time to update either, so sry. but since u guys see me so much weekly it wouldn't matter either rite? heh. it's 745pm now, n i have 15 mins to write a post before i go back to camp.

Been really slack lately, but it's still a build up to the full troop exercise rite after Easter, n eio is finally stepping in to the 2 yrs of being 'vegetarian' also on the same day! Definitely going to be fun for him, n i hope to get out of it soon. hahaha!

Watched the shinjuku incident and detroit metal city lately. DMC was hilarious, to see a metalhead having such a wussy nature. hahaha super funny! as for shinjuku, well it's quite boring, n i started to notice a pattern whr every chinese movie i watched(forced to), thr's always chopped up arms flying around. First it was protege, now this?! man.. DMC ROCKS! hahaha!

Feeling really crappy lately, due to some personal problems in and out of army. Really sian to even tink abt it at times, thus im gg to start on the 6wks revolution! As pastor said, 3 wks to break a habit, 3 wks to grow a habit. This 6 wks, im gg to push for something out of the natural. 6 wks later, i will be REVOLUTIONIZE!!!

this is wad your childish ridiculous acts of rejection done to people. i hope you're happy.

SUN GUARD DUTY!!!

This week isn't so bad afterall. i mean, i get to book out so many days this wk, the sunday guard duty dun really matter anymore. =)

Fri i went for Men's Confer. It was really good, guys actually get to be like just boys roughing it out together, it was quite a sight, that thank God the ladies wun there to witness it. Let's awaken the mighty one within!

Now im getting rdy to go to NTUC to stock up stuff for the week in camp and guard duty tml. hahaha catch u all next wk!

Preparation

! booking in real soon. wun be available for the next.... 2 wks? the nxt time you guys see me will probably be april already. So meanwhile sit tight n enjoy wad March has to offer still!

This is a quote that i kop from weiting's blog cos i tink it's real content worthy. well here goes nothing

For what it's worth: it's never too late ... to be whoever you want to be.
There's no time limit, stop whenever you want.
You can change or stay the same;there are no rules to this thing.
We can make the best or the worst of it.
I hope you make the best of it.
And I hope you see things that startle you.
I hope you feel things you never felt before.
I hope you meet people with a different point of view.
I hope you live a life you're proud of.
If you find that you're not,
I hope you have the strength to start all over again."

*quotes from Benjamin's postcards to his daughter in movie Curious Case of Benjamin Button"

HAPPY 21ST BDAE JASMINE!

happiest 21st gal! thanks for having us today. I hope you enjoyed as much as i did! And i hope you like the perfume!

3:22AM

im sitting in front of the com, wif a can of beer by my side. It's been pretty long since i last drank, n i had been craving for beer in a while, especially during the urban operations i had awhile back. So here i am, alil groggy over the beer.

If i were to portray my feelings now, it will be.. discouraged. well.. some how. I regretted the decisions i made, when i felt the Holy Spirit tell me no, and i still did it anyway. Somehow, my mind told me to just do it, while He is telling me it's not wise at all. Now, the consequences have come on to me. Sandwiched. So. sandwiched. Now, i could only hope, and pray, continue to have some faith that it will all worked out some how.

stupid jed

i found this verse along the wk.

Hebrews 13:6the Lord is my helper, so i will have no fear. What can mere people do to me?

Let's build our foundation on God and not on people, for He is our solid rock.
Don't let people bring you down, may it be disappointments or fear.
For God will always be the same yesterday, today and forever!
Assure that! :-)

But wad if God already told you so?

all this are just random ranting under the influence of alcohol. dun take it to heart. jed is always fine =)

im off to bed. busy day tml

hey all! along the week, i actually have thoughts of closing this blog. Since i dun rly haf any decent posts to write lately. Well, for starters, i cant blog about army due to security reasons and that's basically most of the stuffs along my wk. For wkends, im always chilling at home or wif you guys already. So.. why blog about something that everybody knows rite? But still, i tried to leave a post weekly, cos i understand sometimes this is probably the only contact that u guys can haf wif me on a closer basis. To actually know about my thoughts, and not my daily routine. A way for everybody to understand one another n help each other. This, is probably my attempt to get everyone starting to share wif each other, their problems, burdens, and most imptly victories together. I always believe, when coals stick together, they keep each other hot, if they are left alone, they burnt out very quickly and insignificantly. So i urge everyone in this times to really stay united.

Fri i had cg at marc's hse. It was pretty weird to haf 4 ppl only, and we were sharing with each other testimonies and the bridge illustration. I thought i did quite a crappy job wif the bridge thing, cos i really seldom do that. It's a different approach i feel, one that i wasn't that comfortable with. Nevertheless, it was a time of great fellowship, and most imptly. we played PS3 - STREET FIGHTER 4!!!!

shiiiiiiiiiiinnnnkkkkkkkkkkuuuuuuuuuu hadoken!!!!! *mass spam buttons*

Sat was hanging out wif xy, derrick, jason wif their individual other 1/2s. Had crystal jade and sum friggin ex sorbets. But it was worthwhile, definitely the LONGEST time since we last sat down and haf a meal together. Den it was targetting setting for the guys minus xy at DFS. lol! i tink it's quite crappy when u put ur heart to get something but nothing's available.

Sun was CHURCH DAY! Pastor Scallion(hahaha sry i cant resist it) was sharing about the 15thRevolution. how we could spend 15 mins of our time, to let ourselves be inconvenience by others. To really find a need, and meet a need. I thought it was pretty awesome. Since my 15 mins is probably going to start tonight. =) I also felt how important you must carry yourself outside the 4 walls of the church, as indeed, your character will probably determine wad God is in your life. I feel that being in army is definitely a challenge, but im changing day by day, trying to create a new expression. A leopard, that can change it's spots.

Anyway, we were supposed to play frisbee today but it started raining heavily =( nevertheless, we had a fun time at Nebo cafe, like minds cafe but a whole lot cheaper =)) it was definitely good time, we really went crazy and i still hope pok is not going to upload our rabid moments on facebook. oh shit. he just came online! hahahaha!

tat's all for now. im gg in. but b4 i do.

HAPPY 21st BDAE GLENDA!

Thanks buddy, for being more den u could. For being a pillar. Enjoy your bdae, sry i cant be there, but i hope u like the present. I know you would =) n i tink she dun read my blog... so could someone ask her to read on thurs! thanks ya! =) im gone.

heyo.

my com is going.. i tink it's just dying already. Everything is becoming so slow. the internet, n my msn. it's like. nothing works like in the past anymore. probably going to get another com after this year.

Today was a good msg. Indeed unity is very powerful and let's look forward to Easter guys. =) I really hope unity stays on wif e410 too. Never never let it die down because of the new environment, missing some familiar faces. It's a new chapter in your life, make the best out of it! Rmb to always love another, dun bully each other ok?

PREPARE AND REJOICE FOR BIGGER THINGS IN LIFE!

Oh and who's up for ultimate frishbee on 15th!? u nid to wake up in the morning, but i will make ur time worthwhile! =D

protect & shelter me, but don't bring it away from me, cos i will conquer it.

hello!

Was on leave since thurs evening. it was kind of a forced leave that we had to take cos we haf absolutely nothing to do in camp tt wk. So here i am, blogging on a sat! Im just too bored of town that i decided to just stay at home and slack. However, im still tinking of catching a movie, maybe slumdog millionaire or wrestler i guess. Role model sucks, boring movie!

I spent my entire wk other den slping reading up on the Harvest magazine. It's really good and there's many articles that gave me a lot of thoughts. Many times at night while i prayed, i couldn't sense the flow of the Holy Spirit at all. All too many times, i find myself praying and answering my own enquiries. What happen to that touch of God then? im a very forgetful person, I need this renewing of the Spirit! i need a new encounter! I been around long enough to stay stagnant this way. I seen how people come and go, seen how people rising up to the occasion. I need that as well. I need to fight and push for bigger breakthroughs! No physical limitation can get me down, i can be better than this!

Anyway, my tp is on 30th May(SAT). Those that need a ride to church, esp those living in my area. PRAY REALLY HARD I WILL PASS! Alrite, im gg to continue to load up videos to my ipod! Cya around~

randomlicious things

If you haven been hearing from me for a while, just wanna say that msn is going bonkers over me lately and i cant stay online for too long at each time to even haf a conversation wif lileng. tat's probably not tt bad since we're shouting to one another most of the time wif our exclamation marks, we're both having sore throats and she's most of the time breathless!

and HAPPY BDAE TO JEROME!

since kokyong has found the link to my blog. guess i cant hide it anymore. hahaha!

my blog has always been a stumbled link for stalkers. First was my fren's gf and now my army friend found it as well. LOL!

anyway a big happy bdae to jerome here. That day was just a chilled out moment wif his wii n flat screen monitor. Wad happen nxt was this.

the guys bought it for him. lol 1 position a day. omg.

wii game! sum random rabid rabbit game. hilarious!

scotty his dog!

after tt was hanging out wif jason on a shopping spree. let's just say, in this economic downturn. we are extremely HAPPY to be spending government's money. So after so many things that i got lately, i decided to finally do up a wishlist too for goal setting or hint for friends!(19sept!) (i am so bored omg.)

1. Ipod Classic 80 GB hard leather pouch

If you see this let me know!!!! ESP SERENE!!!

2. Blackberry Bold 9000

Actually i didn't think about getting it till looking at the design for myself. i was just looking for a friggin big phone screen and a qwerty keyboard actually. I myself was selling iphones for awhile but didn't find the interest at the touchscreen technology either. So after chancing upon Howard's phone and doing a research myself. i tink im quite dead serious to get it already. Howard got the best deal for only 200+, while i haf a lobang for 600+. Now im still wondering. n pondering. hmmmmmmmm...

3. A ahem* wallet. haha i couldn't find any good designs lately. maybe till den i will post it up again!

till den. im gone!

omg. im getting fatter. FIELD CAMP COME BURN ME UP!

V DAY!

a yr later.

For teresa =D
ty for everything people <3

Happy Valentine's Day =))

i watched the curious case of benjamin button yesterday. well for some that might not know and still comtemplating whether to watch it. the story is about a child who was born old, abandoned by his father, grow younger as the day goes by and has a complicated love life with his childhood love, that is growing older by the day. it's 166 mins long, and well. the movie is not tt all fantastic if ure a action fanatic like dan. but if ure looking for a movie that invoke some thoughts, this might be it.

Just think about it, how can you love someone, when you're growing younger by the day, while your loved one is growing older by the day. the struggles of being a father, whose child will one day be older than u? Growing up in an ageing home, where death comes swiftly and a frequent visitor of the home. The meaning of death, amplified when you will get to see most of ur loved ones die before you.

haha i wun go to emo here. but benjamin button did led an interesting life. A seaman, working in the navy, visiting a brothel, travelling to places. i dare say, he led more adult life than those who grew up normally.

So do give it a shot if ure tired of chick flick like bride wars. =X

Anyway since V day is coming near. Rmb to show care n concern to ur loved ones! n yes even though i say nxt yr V day i dun wanna spend wif frens. but tt's wat i say every yr. lol. n yes to derrick's gf, sumtimes instead of finding, i just got to wait for the right one. till den, i got to concentrate on the 3 things i mentioned earlier!

Spiritually, mentally, physically!

im gg off. take care n chill ppl!

i was supposed to blog something that is affecting me lately. but i couldn't bring myself to do it. Cos i shall not dwell in misery. There is too much to lose, i won't give it up just because of some comment.

I will be a better son, a better brother, a better friend, a better child of God. i will build myself up. Spiritually, mentally, physically. i gave it some thought, i shouldn't be pursuing things of the natural when these 3 things are not up yet. I will become stronger and better.

a leopard that is spotless. u will see.

random stuff but still AWESOMELICIOUS

Some thing that i saw on mtv earlier on...

The Rasmus - Justify

Fwah. like. omg. i never knew the Rasmus is so emo. lol cry black tears siol! kinda surprised by the mtv, but it's an awesome song nevertheless.

i finally bought my bag! not wat i haf in mind earlier on, but something subtle for my budget. and the salesperson is rly pretty! hahaha!

wallet nxt?

told u it was random.....

Bystander has MOVED! AGAIN!

yes, bystander has finally step into Haji Lane, joining the peeps @ Greyhomme!

We are now located at 44 Haji Lane, lvl 2 Greyhomme. Do come and visit!

W50X

yep tt's the name of my new cg. X cos we haven confirmed the new number. Sounds kinda cool but weird at the same time. The feeling over all is just very weird still. I came in, sat beside ly n den looked around, everybody's different now. like wow. A very different feeling that i haven felt in the longest time. Some of us are still trying to catch a glimpse of one another while we can in church, or haf sum chatting moment tgt at atm, foodcourt and jazz pub? It's like a part of us are still stick to one another. Jc n i even mistaken strangers to be wei ning and aaron. haha tt's hilarious.

It's like.. the family bonds are closely knitted.

it definitely will take awhile for us to get used to it. rite e410? =)

STEAMBOAT MANIA!

i tink. im going to stop having steamboat for awhile. Went through countless of it in a wk! i got to say the best food can be found in baba seet's hse! the sambal prawns is superb, but definitely a killer. it's like mega mcspicy X10! gives the stomach a quiver~ This is a gd time to meet up old friends, as well as bid farewell to some(nah it's not tt bad!!!) So here are the photos!

Maven's house!

Been a long time since i seen this pal. Still the same, always splurging on food. spent nearly 200 on food tt day, but we didn't even finish 1/2. He's a bartender now though, so we all got treated wif his mix!

Lileng's hse!

This is our last cg gathering together before all of us head to different cg. But it's all gd yea? Great dinner great company, great gameSSSS. YES!

CNY!

CNY! woots! just a little photo updates that i haven done for awhile!

this is my sis. stop saying she looks like me! i tink she looks like teresa now. omg.

My ah ma!

Fwah. suddenly, u feel time rly flies. Im in army, the one in white going to army, the one in blue. wah so tall already. last yr he still little boy!

The ladies!
This is the first grp photo of the cousins. Have never done it before in the past. Definitely the first after so many years. Ah ma did the positioning of us. It was like a 'class photo' moment for us. i guess?

So much has changed. it's quite weird when you think abt it actually. When i was younger. we didn't rly talk much. maybe we're just shy and all, when the fact is we only see each other once a yr. Everybody was so closed up den. And this year, we can actually feel a tinge of everybody opening up to each other. Quite an awesome feeling. Is tt feeling called kinship? As for my other side of cousins, it's hard for us to meet up unlike in the past, when we all haf our own lives to lead. I recall not seeing my younger cousin for like wat.. 2 yrs? Was kinda weird to see her again. Definitely been awhile, esp when memories flood in or wad we used to do together.. Now it's just an awkward smile.. something tt i haven done in awhile. Nevertheless, this yr cny is better. no matter how bad the economy might be, kinship is the bond tt holds all of us tgt. =)